Still Pondering

I’ve thought a lot about Super Mom over the weekend.  She keeps making appearances in my mind.  She won’t leave me alone. She even pesters me at one in the morning! The more I think about her the more I realize how important it is for each of us to be our own version of Super Mom.  God made us who we are.  He wants us to be the beautiful creation He designed us to be.  And to be that to our full potential. He doesn’t want us to desire to be someone else.  That would be coveting.

COVET~ to want ardently what someone else has

ENVY~ discontent and ill will over another’s advantages, possessions, etc.

The green-eyed bug didn’t begin to plague me incessantly until I began to blog.  Blogging opened up a whole new realm.  Through my computer screen I saw mom’s who were amazing. Perfectly perfect it seemed.  They could write like nobodies business. They fed their children wholesome, awesome meals. They were crafting geniuses.  They took the most gorgeous photographs.  All while being the best mom to their children and looking gorgeous while doing it.  I wanted to be just like these women.

I wanted to write and have my readers be in awe.  I wanted to feed my children without feeling guilty. I wanted to make money crafting. I wanted to take amazing photographs. Soon I was so involved in doing and desiring to be, that my children slipped into the background.  I became obsessed with keeping up and being just as good, if not better.

I became someone I didn’t want to be.  I became someone opposite of what God designed me to be.  He created me to be first and foremost devoted to Him. Living a life full of love and selflessness. Only then can I be the best. The best wife. The best mommy. The best writer or best photographer (in my own little realm). 

I may never be remembered for my writing, photography or nutritional prowess, but my children will remember what I placed my focus on and I will be their Super Mommy!

 

Besides having deep, moving thoughts about who I am, this weekend, I also got to do a bit of gardening!  YIPPEE!

Joel disked the garden and prepared it for me to be able to get some of my seeds in the ground.

Yah, can you believe it!  I can think, make straight rows and plant seeds all at the same time. It was really quite a feat!

Honestly my boys helped me.  I needed a little assistance in stringing the binder twine and pounding in posts. I’m not known for the straightest of rows! Actually, I was quite surprised Joel entrusted this job to me.  He usually lays out the rows for me, because the first year I did them it was a sight!  I stood behind my work until seedlings started to come up in the most crooked rows I have ever seen!

Little did I know that we were going to have torrential rains on Sunday. UGH!  I think I may be replanting when it dries out…just to be on the safe side.  I want lots and lots of spinach and lettuces and I’m not letting the rain ruin my plans for a humongous salad.

Happy Monday!