Change is difficult especially when it isn’t something we ask for or desire. Big changes are looming in the future for our family. And I’d be lying if I told you it wasn’t bothering me. Honestly it has me tied in knots. I can’t wrap my mind around what this change is going to mean for us. It scares me, the not knowing. I’m afraid that life as I know it is going to be twisted, turned and manipulated into something absolutely and drastically opposite from what it is right now.
I know that the Lord sees all, knows all and cares for all. I know that he cares for the littlest sparrow and watches over the very flowers in the fields. But, I still find myself wondering. Considering every possible scenario of how the days ahead are going to play out.
The future, the unknown, it is vast. It’s hanging over my head like a cloud. I am clinging to these words…
Are not five sparrows sold for two farthings, and not one of them is forgotten before God?
But even the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Fear not therefore: ye are of more value than many sparrows. Luke 12:6-7
You will keep in perfect peace all who trust in you, whose thoughts are fixed on you! Isaiah 26:3
I’m praying for the peace that only God can give. I am lifting up my eyes to the One who can strengthen me and soothe me with His love and care. When I keep my eyes on Him I do feel His peace. I know that even though the time ahead is going to be difficult and uncertain, He is going to be holding our hands the whole time.
But, when I get distracted by the possibilities I feel weighted. There is a heaviness in my chest and tears threaten. Without Him I am scared. When I take my eyes off Him I am afraid of what I am going to have to give up.
I need to look outside of myself. My eyes must seek His face. Only then do I know with utter assurance that He alone is enough.
Look to the Lord and His strength, seek His face always. I Chronicles 16:11