I want to grab it up, hold it close and never let it go. But, try as I might time moves on and littleness stretches, changes and yearns for big.
Fingers and toes grow, losing their dimples. Chubby cheeks and thighs slim. Dependence fades and independence claims its place.
I’m not yielding yet! I still have such a deep longing to hold that precious littleness close. Bury it deep in my heart and memory. Spending quiet moments letting it soak deep into my soul.
You are my forever girl and I’m your forever Momma. I treasure our moments, your smile, dimples and striking blue eyes. I cherish your giggles, your imagination, your sweet little girl smell, your desire to help me around the house, garden and kitchen.
Our days are filled with so much lately. But, even in the midst of the busyness there are times for hugs, smiles and laughter. We find moments. We cling to them. We are grateful for them.
As I type, you are beautifying me. Placing myriads of your barrettes into my hair. Then you are down and running. And I’m stopping to watch you as you practice your twirls.
These moments, these precious times, these are what I don’t want to lose. My heart aches. I know there are good things to come. I see them in your brothers, but I also know the things that are gone and no longer, that I use to share with them.
When I look at you I don’t ever want to let go. I want you to fit into my arms as you do right now. I want to always have you run to me when you are in need. I want you to climb into my lap for stories. And I don’t ever want you to stop wrapping your arms around me and planting your sweet, little lips on mine.
Oh Lord, you have blessed me with such a precious gift. Thank you from all that is within me! May I cherish the moments of now, the moments of yesterday, and the moments to come, with your wonderful, beautiful child.