Friday, May 22, 2009

So Sorry


My son motioned to me to come to him. As I got closer I saw tears pooling in his eyes. In a trembling voice he told me he needed to talk to me.  I met him in his room and asked him what was wrong. With tears tumbling from his eyes, he told me that he had said something that he shouldn't have.  He had been angry with his brother and it had just popped out of his mouth in a rush of emotion. He continued to tell me how sorry he was and that he felt physically ill from keeping it to himself.  I thanked him for his honest confession and held him in my arms until he felt forgiven.

A perfect teachable moment presented itself when he said that he still felt awful about his bad choice even though he had asked God to forgive him repeatedly.  I gently put my arms around him, telling him that this was the exact reason why Christ died for us;to save us from our sins. When we confess our sins, the Lord wipes them away. He cleanses us.  He loves us so much that he doesn't keep account of all our wrongs but forgives us for each and every one.  The look of joy on his face was irreplaceable. His face lit up with a smile and his eyes shone. Then like all little children everywhere, he turned on his heel and rushed from the room to continue in his play.

Our conversation stayed with me longer.  I began to think about how I view confession of my sins.  Do I feel as remorseful for my mess ups as my son did?  When a bad word slips from my lips in anger, do I feel tears spring to my eyes and quickly seek the Lord's forgiveness? When I am sarcastic or short in my responses to those whom I love, do I feel my heart breaking?  As a young girl I would have answered yes to each of these questions. Like my son, I would feel physically sick until I confessed to God and my parents. Now, though, my conscience isn't so sensitive. I have let time harden me. Jesus said to his disciples

"Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of God belongs to such as these.  I tell you the truth, anyone who will not receive the kingdom of God like a little child will never enter it." Mark 10:14-15

How easy it is for us to forget the innocence of our youth. To get hardened by the world and lose our sense of remorse.  I want to be more like my son. When I lose my patience I want to feel awful until I seek forgiveness. When I let my tongue run wild I want to my heart to hurt from the damage I have caused. I don't want to live like the world and feel I have the right to hurt others with my words just because they may have wronged me.  I don't want to live my life based on vindication. I want, I need to live my life surrounded by God's forgiveness, mercy and love.


  1. what a WONDERFUL very true. glad you shared this today.
    have a wonderful weekend.

  2. Very nice, thanks for sharing. I love the new blog look as well!

  3. Wow, that is wonderful. Great post. Thank you for sharing.

  4. Funny how it's always a double edge sword..HOLY Spirit given.

    Wonderful post Jenn!

  5. Oh, to have such a sensitive, teachable heart like your sweet little one. I love how God uses our children to remind us daily of these things.

  6. How precious, I also want to be like your sweet darling boy and feel broken hearted because I had done or said something wrong. Thank you so much fro sharing this beautiful story.

  7. Bless his heart. So innocent, huh??

    Great post, girl. I am always amazed when my children teach ME something!

    Have a great weekend.

  8. powerful post! oh what we can learn from our children if we will only take the time.

    have to tell you that your kids are SO blessed to have you for their mom.

    i sure know that i am not anywhere near as remorseful about my sins as i should be. it's as if i know they're forgiven and i am over it. you've given me lots to think about.

  9. Aww, love this post. What a sweet little guy. Hope you are having a great weekend!

  10. What a reminder! Sometimes we forget what it was like to be sensitive to others and to God. Makes me think about where I am now...

  11. What a great post...a teachable moment for mama.

    Love all your critters below! Also, my columbine in that same color just bloomed this week. I am so excited that spring is finally here.

    Great post on the bluebirds too.

    I noticed the 4-H symbol...I was in 4-H for 10 yrs and loved it!

  12. What an inspiring and humbling post!! You're right, too many of us use our 'adulthood' as an excuse to brush off our slip ups. We need to confess our sins and desire to correct our wrongs <3 amen!!

    P.S. Love your new layout!!

  13. It warms a mommas heart to see their kids truly sorry when they have done wrong. And yes what a great moment teach them about our loving God.
    I love the new look of your blog.

  14. Oh my, isn't it wonderful how Our Lord continue to give us opportunity to grow in His Word?

    May He continue to bless your young son and may He continue to guide his steps.


    lady m

  15. I think for me, I often forget that God's grace is there to make things right again. Instead, I sit in my hardened state of sin and refuse to look elsewhere. It's God's kindness that leads us toward repentance, but too often I don't look there.

    Thanks for the encouragement to keep my heart soft and thankful!


  16. It's me again! Okay, now I think we are kindred spirits. I loved this post. It ministered to me so much, actually convicted the daylights out of me. I have been lamenting how many things don't seem to bring the same conviction they did years ago. This was so great. I pray for deep conviction on the things that break the heart of God.

    thanks for sharing!



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