Last week I wrote a post about being weary, bone-tired, exhausted and ready to give up. I wanted to share what I was feeling that day even though it wasn't pretty or picture perfect. It was me. It was how I was feeling at that moment. It wasn't a proud moment. It was just an honest look into my life.
I wanted to portray myself as I really am. Faulty. I'm not perfect. I fail. I mess up and feel guilty about it. I'm selfish. I sometimes desire my needs and wants above those in my care. I'm weak. I'm broken. But, most importantly I'm loved.
It's an amazing, astounding, mind-blowing kind of love. God loves me even when I am at my most unlovable. He envelopes me with His compassion. He doesn't hide His face from me when I am ungrateful and selfish, but rather comes near so that I can feel his presence.
Psalm 18:35 says,
You give me your shield of victory, and your right hand sustains me, you stoop down to make me great.
My sister, Marisa, shared this verse with me on a day when I felt like I couldn't and didn't want to go on. What an amazing promise from God's word! And what perfect timing for my sis to share a verse with me that I so desperately needed.
On the days when my attitude is needing a bit of a boost, I can claim this verse. God will give me victory over crankiness! He will give me the strength I need to go on. He will sustain me, carrying the weight of my troubles. But, what touches me the most is that He will stoop down to make me great!
A grumpy, discontent momma?
God's love for me, a sinner, makes my heart soar! And it's molding me into a great woman, wife, daughter, sister and momma!