Lately, I have really struggled to fix my eyes and heart on Jesus. I get distracted. I let myself get busy. I ignore the dryness in my heart. I try to shrug off the lowness of my spirit. I surround myself with things to do so, that I don’t have to face the lack of connection I am feeling.
It’s painful and it’s me.
I need to fix my eyes and heart on Jesus. I need to dig deep in the Word. I need to immerse myself in prayer. I need to open my heart and listen for His prodding's. I need to set aside a deep, desiring, seeking question of my heart. I need to stop yearning for an answer and instead search, seek, run, to my Savior.
I’m not looking for a spiritual high. I just desire to feel, to know, that I am walking along side my Lord. To experience again the comfort of His Spirit. To feel the solidness of who He is under my feet.
I need to Fix My Eyes on Jesus.
Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. Hebrews 12:2
He has given so much for me. Why can’t I just lay this soul dryness aside and earnestly fix my heart on Him?
Oh Lord, save me!
I have let this desire of my heart consume me. Yes, it is honest, true and noble. It could bring glory to You, but it has swallowed me. My days and minutes are spent delving into the many ways I could fulfill this desire. Help me to set it aside. Forgive me for wandering away, for turning my heart from you. You truly are my rock and fortress, to which I can run in times of peace and trouble. Open my eyes to you, my creator. You know my every thought, deed and desire. I know you are working on me through this. Help me to wait. And whatever the answer may be, help me to accept. Water my heart with your love and compassion, so that I may bloom more fully for you. Open my the eyes of my heart Lord, so that I may truly see.
In your Holy name,
*Baring my heart and soul today. Writing it all down to grasp what I am thinking and feeling. Sharing my shortcomings in hopes that it touches another heart.
This post is part of Walk with Him Wednesday over at A Holy Experience.