Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Fix My Eyes

combine and garden

Lately, I have really struggled to fix my eyes and heart on Jesus.  I get distracted. I let myself get busy.  I ignore the dryness in my heart.  I try to shrug off the lowness of my spirit.  I surround myself with things to do so, that I don’t have to face the lack of connection I am feeling.
It’s painful and it’s me.
I need to fix my eyes and heart on Jesus.  I need to dig deep in the Word.  I need to immerse myself in prayer.  I need to open my heart and listen for His prodding's. I need to set aside a deep, desiring, seeking question of my heart.  I need to stop yearning for an answer and instead search, seek, run, to my Savior.
I’m not looking for a spiritual high.  I just desire to feel, to know, that I am walking along side my Lord. To experience again the comfort of His Spirit.  To feel the solidness of who He is under my feet. 
I need to Fix My Eyes on Jesus.
Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.  Hebrews 12:2

He has given so much for me.  Why can’t I just lay this soul dryness aside and earnestly fix my heart on Him?
Oh Lord, save me! 
I have let this desire of my heart consume me. Yes, it is honest, true and noble.  It could bring glory to You, but it has swallowed me.  My days and minutes are spent delving into the many ways I could fulfill this desire.  Help me to set it aside.  Forgive me for wandering away, for turning my heart from you.  You truly are my rock and fortress, to which I can run in times of peace and trouble.  Open my eyes to you, my creator. You know my every thought, deed and desire.  I know you are working on me through this.  Help me to wait. And whatever the answer may be, help me to accept.  Water my heart with your love and compassion, so that I may bloom more fully for you. Open my the eyes of my heart Lord, so that I may truly see.

In your Holy name,

*Baring my heart and soul today.  Writing it all down to grasp what I am thinking and feeling.  Sharing my shortcomings in hopes that it touches another heart.



This post is part of Walk with Him Wednesday over at A Holy Experience.


  1. A precious prayer that I so often need! Thank for your raw & honest thoughts!

  2. Girl, I think we could all be thrown into that big old hole. We loose sight of our Maker in our busyness lacking to give Him our time as we should. We are so very blessed that He is quick to forgive.

    Have a marvelously blessed day in the Lord! :o)

  3. first...
    love the photo!
    don't we all!

    it touches my heart.

  4. What a message, sister! I too need to fix on eyes on Jesus. Thank you. God bless.

  5. I understand completely. I struggle with the same thing. Sometimes I feel that I am making progress, then, it seems that I slowly slip. I've been earnestly trying to keep my eyes fixed on Him. I want to always feel His warmth and compassion regardless of the situation and I want to radiate His love so that I can inspire others to come to Him.

    I love the picture too, by the way.

    And thanks for visiting and commenting my blog! :)

  6. I love how the picture dipicts a crown of thorns... not sure if that is what you thought of, but I did.

    Jenn. He is your all in all = the author and the finisher of your faith.

    I think this is why I cling to and love the verse found in Psalm 138 verse 8 (KJV)

    The Lord will perfect all that concerneth me; thy mercy, Oh LORD, endureth forever. Forsake not the works of thine hands.


    Do you feel like the Lord is doing some (heart) work in you? Does it hurt?? It feels like a barbed wire - getting ripped out of you, because it's in there so deep?

    I know the feeling...
    and in the end, it's always for our good. The only way to focus through the pain of it all is to keep our eyes on Jesus the one and only. To look anywhere else is sinking sand.

    Love you, my friend. Keep looking UP!!

  7. I hope you realize that you are NOT alone. I too struggle with this and try daily to spend time with Him, but still feel this way. Thank you for sharing.

  8. What a precious post Jenn! Your heart is beautiful! I agree with Bevy...Psalm 138:8 is such a comforting verse! I also love Jeremiah 29:11-14a. Hang in there my friend...HE does ALL things well!!

    In His Love,

  9. Good post. Sometimes, this is a daily struggle--staying focused on Jesus above all things. It's not just the big things that causes distraction...sometimes it is something good. Even ministry related activities can distract us from fixing our eyes on Jesus. There were times in the past when I came to realize the only time I spent any time in God's Word was when I was preparing a sermon or a Bible study. Staying busy is not at all hard when you are in ministry--there are always people who need a visit or a phone call. Busyness is one way Satan works to take our focus away from Jesus.

    Anyway, good post. :-)

  10. So very true in my life too at times. I often wonder why, when I know that I have to rely on the Lord so much for strength, patience & just to get through each day - why I let my times with him slide.
    Thanks for this post.
    Renata :)

  11. I love the hymn "Come thou font of every blessing" - I like the part that says "prone to wander, Lord I feel it" - I think we all have moments like this but what is important is that we realize it and try to refocus.

  12. I must digg your article so other people are able to look at it, very helpful, I had a hard time finding the results searching on the web, thanks.

    - Joe


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