For the past couple of months I have made it the cry of my heart that I would become hungry and desperate for the Lord.
Too often I have let myself, my heart, my thoughts become busy. I fill my life with blogging, photography, reading, crocheting, gardening, mothering, homemaking, homeschooling. These things are not bad. They can be good and extremely worthwhile. However, when they become my focus, my all in all, then they become my idols.
Honestly very rarely in my life have I felt desperate to spend time with the Lord. It saddens me to see this in writing, but it is truth. The times I have earnestly sought Him I have been in fear or distraught. Times when I have been brought to my knees in desperation, I have sought Him fervently. Yes, these are important times to cry out to Him, but it should be my soul’s cry every single day.
I should long for Him as He longs for me. I should yearn to spend time worshipping and praying. I should be hungry for His word and His presence.
And so it has become my cry.
Make me hungry. Make me desperate. Make me run to you with an earnest heart.
I don’t want to do my Bible reading, prayer, and worship out of a sense of duty. I want to be on fire!
So, I have started to spend half an hour each afternoon worshiping the Lord. During our household quiet time, I go into my room, close the door and remind the kids that I will be spending time with God. (If they need me, they know they can come in).
I put on a worship CD and lift my voice in praise to my King. I open my journal and I listen. I write out scriptures that touch my heart. I write down anything the Lord impresses upon my heart.
Sometimes its sentences.
Sometimes its a single word.
Monday I was once again calling to the Lord to make me desperate for Him. I was listening to a song I have listened to hundreds of times before and all of a sudden I knew what the Lord was calling me to do.
My SAVIOR wants me to SAVOR Him!
He desires for me to enjoy Him. To be excited about our relationship. To relish in his presence.
To take my time, no rushing, and let his sweetness, his strength, his love, his awesomeness seep into my soul.
Taste and see that the LORD is good. Oh, the joys of those who trust in him!