I'm going to be absolutely honest with you right now. For the past few days I have been on the verge of running out my front door arms flailing above my head, yelling a primal scream, and not looking back as I headed for who knows where. To put it bluntly, I desperately need a break. I need some me time. I'm getting overloaded with being needed, constantly. I need to get away from the bickering, noise making, whining, fit throwing, leg clinging chaos that has been following me around my house! Now don't get me wrong my angels aren't always beasts. They just seem like it when I've had enough! It has been over 2 months since I have been able to get away. I believe my mothering skills are being tested and failing miserably.
My sanity was saved last night in the form of one my dearest friends. Heather called as I was getting Lauren ready to go on a family grocery getting expedition. Yes, an expedition, in my mind last night, I was going to need the strength of Rambo and the knowledge of David Livingstone to accomplish the feat of getting supplies for the following week! Heather asked me if I wanted to head to the outlet mall about 45 min away from where we live. She offered to take me to Wal-mart to pick up the groceries I needed and get this, to top that all off she wanted to treat me to dinner! I practically yelled a resounding yes, in her ear. I even forgot to check if that would work for my husband in my haste to find some reprieve. Thankfully he was fine with the arrangement, since I would be taking Lauren with me.
Heather brought along her daughter Kloee, who is 10 weeks younger than Lauren. It was funny to listen to the girls. They kept calling each other babies and in the next breath yelling, "no, mine." We had a great evening. It was so refreshing. We talked and talked about what we wanted to talk about, no Star Wars, or cowboy ramblings, or hunting tales. We laughed and there was such relief in my mind, body and soul. For the most part I am a total home body. I love being in my home surrounded by my family. But every now and then, I feel such an intense need to get away, that it consumes me. It affects my parenting if I don't fulfill that need. Thankfully, the Lord knew it was time! Heathers call came about 15 minutes before I would have been leaving. God knew I needed to rejuvenate. Its amazing how an evening away can help me with my perspective. This morning I feel like a new woman. I'm ready to go on that expedition and face the clinging monkeys, roaring lions, bickering wildebeests and tiresome mosquitoes, with wisdom, grace, mercy and most importantly love!
To Heather, thank you for being who you are! Your generosity to me is amazing and wonderful. You always lighten my heart and mind with your ability to laugh at life. Thanks for being such an awesome friend!