Don't worry! It isn't anything contagious. I've been bitten by the loneliness bug. I usually keep my posts uplifting and upbeat, but today I wanted to be open and honest. I seriously contemplated whether or not to post about this at all. But, who knows, maybe someone else is suffering from this malady today. I have been dealing with the affliction, of a lonely heart, for a couple of weeks now. I am hoping to recover soon, but who knows with these things.
Oh, I know I am not alone! My days are very busy and filled with activity. I am surrounded by my four precious children, day in and day out! I love my kids dearly, but I am aching for some adult contact. I am a home body by nature and don't usually mind that I don't get out much, but, Oh Boy, has it been bothering me lately. My husband, Joel, is doing the best he can, but we aren't seeing much of each other because he has been crazy busy the past couple of weeks.
What I need is a good night out with a girlfriend! The sad thing is- it is highly unlikely that this will happen since all my friends seem to have jumped into the same ship as I did. We are all busy with our young children. I know these times will pass by quickly and I will miss my precious children's questions, noise and busyness. But, for today, I desire some grownup conversations, a fancy coffee, and lots of laughter with a good friend.
"Find rest, O my soul, in God alone; my hope comes from him. He alone is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will not be shaken." Psalm 62:4-5 What comfort these words provide. When I feel my soul is in turmoil I only need to come to the Lord to find hope and sweet rest. I need to lean on Him in these times of loneliness. I know He can fill my heart and soul with comfort even in this time.
Psalm 25:16 says, "Turn to me and be gracious to me, for I am lonely and afflicted." In this Psalm, David is calling out to God, asking for relief from his suffering. Even David, who was a strong warrior and faced unbearable situations suffered from loneliness. He too, called out to the Lord asking for God's strong loving arms to ease his burden. It helps me to know that even a brave warrior dealt with these feelings. I am not alone!
These verses remind me not to dwell on myself, but to look to HIM. They re-focus my attention. They help me to be grateful for each moment I get to spend with each of those who are in my family. God has blessed me. On my days of loneliness I just need to focus on this and know that in His time I will be sipping coffee with my girlfriends!
Just keep me in your prayers.
I know I'll pull through!
I feel better already!
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