Thank you to all of you for the heart-touching comments and prayers. I have gained some amazing friends through blogging and I am thankful for each and everyone of you!
I am struggling with a decision. I'm not sure what to do. I haven't gained any relief, as of yet, from the Chiropractor. I am going twice a day. This afternoon when I went in he said the adjustment he had made this morning had popped back out. I know this won't be a quick fix, but the pain is getting hard to bear. I started taking the pain medication again last night out of desperation. I just lowered the amount I take. It is helping some. Joel and I need to decided by Tuesday whether I will keep the appointment with the Neurosurgeon. At this point I just don't know what to do. If I should just stick with the Chiropractor or see what the Neurosurgeon can do. I would like to avoid surgery if at all possible, but who wouldn't! Please pray that we will know which way to go with this.
It's been about 11 years since I had to deal with prolonged bedrest. It isn't easy. Especially for a mama! I have deeper understanding of what others have gone through when they have been stuck in bed. Oh, how I wish I could get up and resume my role as wife, mother and household manager. It has been really hard on me to see Joel assuming both roles. I just want to jump up and help him. I am grateful, however, that he has been so willing and loving as he cares for me and our children.
I'm sure there is a lesson waiting to be learned here. I'm pretty sure it has to do with a control issue. Most likely in the realm of giving total control of my life over to Lord. And that I don't have to do it all and be all. I am taking this time to seek out what He has for me to learn.
In the meantime, I have learned some pretty important skills, like typing while lying on my back. And doing the granny shuffle. And eating with plate to lips and scooping food to my mouth. You know skills that are good to have in a time of need!