I have nothing witty.
Nothing extraordinarily outstanding on my mind right now.
What I have at this moment is life. My life. Rattling around in the rooms of my mind.
There’s the sickness that seems to continue to haunt us…another child down. AGAIN. The fourth round in 6 weeks. I’m praying for strength. I’m holding on to God and I’m refusing to let this bring me down as it has in the past.
There’s school. Always at the forefront of my mind. How can I make our days flow more smoothly? How can I instill in my boys the desire to do their best and work their hardest in every thing they do? How do I help them see the importance of learning? How do I impart a joy of learning and excitement of digging deep into subjects?
There’s this teenager thing. I feel clueless. Really clueless. Like walking in a lightless room stubbing my baby toe again and again and again, clueless. Thankfully I have faith in an amazing God. I know He will light our way through this time. I may still feel a lack of wisdom on how to handle situations that arise and I know there will be heartache, but I have the Lord and He has us in the palm of His hand. I’m sure I’ll still stub my sensitive baby toe, but, with God, at least I’ll know what I’m kicking at.
There’s the usual household stuff. You know… What’s for dinner? How did everyone run out of clean underwear so fast? Why does the sink fill up with dirty dishes so quickly? Who smeared toothpaste all over the bathroom mirror? Will somebody burn the trash already!
So you see, it’s not high and lofty thoughts that fill my mind, but the everyday, my life, my children, my schedule, my GOD that rumbles and twists and repeats in my head. Sometimes jumbled and confused and sometimes crystal clear.