There isn't much to tell at this point. I am still flat on my back. I can only stand or sit for a minute of two before the pain is so excrutiating that I have to lay down. Joel and I have decided for the time being to stick with the Chiropractor. We will use surgery as a last ditch effort. I could really use your prayers. I am trying to keep positive about this whole thing, but I have had some moments of despair. It is hard to be stuck and bed and unable to help my family. I just want to jump up and make everything better. I am tired of the pain and fighting boredom. I've never been very good at being still. Maybe this is what God has planned for me...being still and knowing He is God.
This has been really hard on our family. Especially my youngest two children, Caleb and Lauren. Lauren just can't comprehend why mommy can't get up and play or get her drinks or eat dinner at the table with her. She has been spending most of her time at my mom and dad's house. They are such a blessing to me. I don't know what I would do with out their help and support. Thankfully they live just down the road from us, so my mom has been bringing Lauren home in the afternoons when Joel comes home from work. As soon as she gets home she climbs right into bed with me and we snuggle, read and play.
Caleb and Lauren have been spending the nights at my parents home. My mom wasn't too happy with me, when she found out that I laid down on the floor in Lauren's room on Sunday night. Lauren was crying so hard that she was on the verge of throwing up. So, I threw some blankets on the floor and made her a bed. I gingerly got down on the floor and laid next to her until she fell asleep. She needed and wanted her mommy, so I did what I had to do. However, when my mom found out what I had done, she gave me a lecture about needing to get better and not creating further damage on the disk in my lower back. So, since then she has taken over and is selflessly and wonderfully caring for my littlest ones.
Please pray for Joel as he takes care of us all, for my children as they cope with momma being down and out, and my parents as they care for Lauren and Caleb.